Oishee

to my wonderful friend,

I dont know if you actually know how much you mean to me. Yes you are my best friend. Yes i cant wait to see you. Yes i have never hugged you but i look forward to. You are my emo buddy, someone who shares many thing in common with me, someone i can talk to who doesnt mind me being emo. and most importantly, someone who cares for me.

but here are a few things that you should know about how important you are to me. I never told you this before, well, i am too shy to even admit it.

you know how at times you compliment me? How you said that i can snipe the best ? How i am your favourite admin? how i do a good job in so many things? those things you say, really push me forward and give me so much more confidence. I dont know why, others tell it too, but when you do, i feel so much more special.

I told alexis actually about how you think i make an amazing guy ( or something like that), you should ask her how excited i was! what you tell me, really boost up my confidence, it really makes me feel very special. and for some apparent reason, only you have this effect on me. Others compliment me, clarissa, lelani, eric, risham, alexis, but everything they say doesn't really
make as much impact to me as you do.

I need you darling, a lot more now.

Eric said he wants to leave, he deserves it. i know this time would come, that he needs a break for himself. i just never thought prince would leave together. I was willing to do more work, but i was hoping prince would be there too. when eric suggested me to be the next triumvir, i told him, i don't think i can do it. I told prince i have no confidence at all. they both said they have confidence in me, and i can do it. but honestly, even until now, when i think about it, im so afraid. i really dont think i can do this at all.

i really need you. i need you to stay beside me and know what im doing. i need you to tell me " good job vish sweetheart, you did well". i need you to be there to talk to me when i screw up. i need you to come to me and give me a hug. i need you to be there for me, to help me boost up whatever confidence i need :(

if you do go, you wont know the things i do. you wont know how i screwed up. you cannot be there for me oishee.

i beg you one more time, i need you so much. please be here with me.